1/2 Way There & A Freak-Out

20 Weeks Today. That means I am 1/2 way there! Wow- that scares me! I have always wanted children, and when we began this journey of trying to get pregnant, all I could think about was how exciting and hard it would be to have a child. The day that I found out we were pregnant, the first thought was "Eventually, this child, which they compare to a watermelon will have to come out of me!" My first meeting with the OB, I brought this up to him. He was actually a little surprised that I was even bringing up the labor & delivery so early on. He said most woman don't worry about that until the end- then they are so miserable that they just want the baby out, whatever way necessary. I have to tell you- I am NOT looking forward to labor! I have a pretty good tolerance for pain, and I know they can give me an epidural, but the thought of the whole process REALLY freaks me out. I am also scared of the thought of having a c-section (if that's what I had to have). I have decided, that if the baby wants to, he can just stay in there!

On another note: I had my first official "freak-out" pregnancy moment. I had been having some shortness of breath at night when I lay down and also some pains every now and then. No cramps, and the pain wasn't constant, it was just every now and then I would just be like "oh, what's that". My monthly OB appointment wasn't until next week, but I called at the beginning of this week to see if they could move it up to this week, due to my new "symptoms". I never felt like something was wrong with the baby, but I have never done this before, so these feeling were new to me. You might think I am just being paranoid or something, but I am entitled to have my feelings since it is my first baby. I went to the OB yesterday, and he said everything I was feeling and experiencing was completely normal. The shortness of breath when I lay down at night is caused from me sleeping on my back. Apparently, you are not supposed to do that while pregnant, unless you have several pillows behind you. (Almost sitting up). He said he thought everyone knew that- well I did not! Most people aren't back sleepers anyway, but I always have been. The "pains" I have been feeling are "round ligament" pains. This is caused from the uterus expanding and stretching- completely normal. I felt much better after hearing all of that and also hearing the little guy's heartbeat. I have not yet felt movement yet, but the doctor said not to worry about that either- it may take a couple more weeks, because my uterus is thick. The doppler picked up a ton of movement. The doctor said the muffled noises I was hearing was him moving all over the place. Every time he would find the heartbeat, the baby would move again- so he is definitely active in there, I just can't feel it yet!

One last note: As you know, Mike and I went at 17 weeks to Ideal Baby Store to find out what we were having- it's a boy. My actual gender scan with the doctor is next week. My sister, who knew I might freak-out when I heard these stories, told me this week that she knows 2 people who over the last week found out that what they thought they were having isn't what they are having after all. One thought she was having a boy- found out the scan was wrong, it's a girl; and another who thought it was a girl, scan was wrong, it's a boy! You never really hear about the gender scans being wrong, but 2 in one week! The girl who did our scan was 200% sure it was a boy- I guess we will know for sure next week. (We really don't have too many doubts that it is a boy- it was pretty clear if you recall from the pictures!)

There's your recap for what has been going on lately! Hope you enjoyed!

PS- It is hard for me to update the "totsite" page and this blog, so I may put "totsite" on hold for a while. I will keep you posted...